The reason is simply, I still can't let go that my pet dog has passed away on 2015 middle of the year. I act tough as it's nothing, but every time something sentimental hits I'll think about him. Not just that, all the bad things that I've done will come suck my soul out.
Middle of the night, I've fallen down on the floor and crying hysterically.
Middle of the night, I've fallen down on the floor and crying hysterically.
On this stage I'm not sure that is this what they call it depression or melancholy or mental break down. Or, I don't even know what the fuck kind of state I am on now... I've climb so hard and walk so far till today's career, yet I still feel some kind of emptiness. Is it because of the term "part-time" was killing me? Or is the lack of knowledge worries me I can't take care of the next generation?
Yeah. Most probably the knowledge lacking side of me...
Yeah. Most probably the knowledge lacking side of me...
Now I've finally realized that walking alone really is a hard path. Am I so call a coward if I tell you that I'm afraid of walking alone now? How do the others do it?!
I don't mind to post sad stuff on my blog but I can't help it no more, since I've already curled up like a child and cried on the floor...
Do I have to pick myself up?
Can't anyone pick me up for once?
Should I hide these feeling deep inside or should I tell someone?
What if that someone is untranslatable?
Do I have to pick myself up?
Can't anyone pick me up for once?
Should I hide these feeling deep inside or should I tell someone?
What if that someone is untranslatable?
What if the fed back is something I don't like to heard or receive?
what if this and that won't work?
what if this and that won't work?
I still got a lot of "what if"to cry on I guess...
People get more sentimental and colder when they get older... I think.
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People get more sentimental and colder when they get older... I think.
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